I am pretty much 100% bulimic lately.
I don't know what is wrong with me, but I need to snap out of it before I make myself really, really sick.
I had a planned binge and purge today... And by planned, I mean, I was at the store shopping for a few necessary items, and next thing I knew I was buying cupcakes, battered chicken, and pasta salad from the deli.
Then I was speeding home with only one thing on my mind: Binge and purge.
I haven't done something like that in almost a year.
Augh, I just blew my nose and there were cupcake fragments in my nose from purging so hard. Repulsive.
I don't know how to stop it lately... It's like food has this sudden power over me, and the only way I can fight it is by throwing it back up...
I need to get back on track. I need to stop this before I get found out or fat... Purging doesn't fix eating it in the first place.
I need help.