Today was an amazing accomplishment compared to yesterday.
I worked out like crazy this morning, and my period came so the food cravings are minimizing. I also went grocery shopping and go a bunch of stuff so I can eat some new foods.
I feel a little weak today, but I'll survive. I haven't binged which is normally what I do when I'm left alone to my own devices. And I didn't purge yesterday. I made myself keep it all down, which made me sick all day. Augh. No more binging for me. I can't binge without a purge, and since purging needs to be cut out of my habits, so does binging.
BUT today I did well. It's late and I still have 200 cals of food and a Bud Select 55 beer allotted for today to equal less than 500 which is what I burned at the gym once I do my ab video in a minute here.
I'm hoping to keep these habits for the next few weeks and that my hard work will pay off by my birthday trip Feb 25-28. My b-day is the 22nd, and we're going on a trip back home that weekend. We haven't been since September, and I want to look super thin and gorgeous when I see all of my friends. I bought hair bleach today so I can be super blonde (even though it's winter) and I'm planning on starting at a new tanning place closer to my house in a couple days...
The fiance is taking my shopping for my b-day since the shops back home are SO much nicer, and I want to be thin, thin, thin when I buy clothes there.
I need to be that beautiful girl who's so obviously doing well.
Even though I'm not.
Thinspo. Black & white (and maybe a couple sepia tone) because it's my favorite.