Friday, June 19, 2009

Life is Lousy

No privacy lately at ALL... But this should change in about a week.

I need to get sneakier.

The fiance is back to being the BF... We've had some major issues.

But I think I'm back on track here as of today... We shall see.

Ana and mia are keeping me sane.

I'll have a lengthy update soon - very juicy indeed.

Thinspo. Rachel, oh Rachel... I want to be you.






Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Blargh.

Today was worse than I'd hoped, but I did well...

Tomorrow's goal is a fast, because the BF won't be here, and I have the day off.

We'll see.

I'm pissed a myself.

I'm a fucking fat-ass.

Ew, ew, ew.

Lately I've been all over the place...

I fasted a day, ate well a day, ate bad 2 days, and now today I'm attempting a fast.

I'm a fucking mess... I gained 2 pounds.

The fiance called me anorexic. And it scared me. So I began eating a bit more... And stretched out my stomach.

Fuuuck.

Yeah.

I don't want him to catch onto me, and he has been... He's SO suspicious which is why I haven't updated lately.

I've been trying for the past few days to get things back under control... Just finished an hour gym sesh and I'm gonna go home and do my abs video... I haven't eaten anything yet today...

Going to try to stay under 500 cals.

Sorry this is pathetically short... I have to go before he comes and finds me, and I want to read your blogs!

Much love, ladies. Wish me luck with my scrictness!