I had a shitty night... Got stoned, ate too much, cried, had nightmares when I fell asleep.
About the lost love of my life.
I don't know what is wrong with me, but I am getting SO depressed. I need to snap out of it. I need to get my life back on track.
Fucking dreams... I miss him. I miss our friendship and I hate that when we broke up he got SO much more of me than I got of him. I wonder about him and wish I could just call and talk to him. How hard is that?
I was going to blog, but I can't make myself.
I feel like shit.
I give up on today. Let's hope tomorrow's better.
Total intake so far today- 100 cals oatmeal.
I contemplated not eating, but I don't think I'm strong enough.