Sunday, January 31, 2010

Oatmeal and sadness

I had a shitty night... Got stoned, ate too much, cried, had nightmares when I fell asleep.

About the lost love of my life.

I don't know what is wrong with me, but I am getting SO depressed. I need to snap out of it. I need to get my life back on track.

I'm stressed.

Fucking dreams... I miss him. I miss our friendship and I hate that when we broke up he got SO much more of me than I got of him. I wonder about him and wish I could just call and talk to him. How hard is that?


I was going to blog, but I can't make myself.

I feel like shit.

I give up on today. Let's hope tomorrow's better.

Total intake so far today- 100 cals oatmeal.

I contemplated not eating, but I don't think I'm strong enough.



  1. Don't tell us you don't know what's wrong with you.
    There is nothing wrong about this.
    Lost love. Sad things happen.
    Unfortunately with people like us, our feelings are expressed with...*whispers* food.
    Get out.
    Take a walk.
    A bath, I don't know.
    Don't stop functioning for too long.
    It's okay to be hurt, just not for too long.
    I wonder if THE SMART GIRL'S BREAKUP BUDDY book would help?
    Be strong and keep me posted on how you're feeling.
    I don't want you to feel alone.

  2. PS Oatmeal and sadness can't go together.
    I love oatmeal.