I managed to LOSE while my friends were here… I averaged around 500 cals a day, and I made sure we went hiking, walking, etc so I could kind of get in a workout.
I don’t even feel hungry lately… And food has become, yet again, something I am terrified of, and something that mentally and emotionally wears me down to the point where I just don’t want to deal with it.
I like being here. I like the counting and planning and terror over fat. It makes me lose. It makes me confident. It makes me happy in a twisted kind of way.
My current weight as of this morning was 115lbs. Just have to keep losing.
And I am posting pictures, though I still have a long way to go… A LONG way…
However, I feel if I never let you all see who I am, it make my blog kind of meaningless, so here you are.
I will post these for an undetermined period of time and remove them as soon as I decide I can’t handle them being public any longer.
[Deleted photos... Sorry, ladies. Thank you for all the sweet comments.]
As you can tell, I’m only 5’4”. Short stubby legs, fat tummy, huge thighs. Even my knees are fat.
I just want to thin down all over and tone up a LOT.
However, I like my collarbones. They've always been really defined.
Alas, I must run.
Think thin, ladies. I’ll post again as soon as privacy permits.