Ladies, I have had a terrible week.
I got sick and had not one bowel movement for FOUR days.
I did everything I could think of: drank coffee, ate fiber cereal, ate only fruits, apples, oranges, corn, beans, drank apple juice, took lax's... No meat, dairy, etc.
Nothing until last night... I haven't been like this EVER... I have no idea why it happened.
I'm don't even know if pooping makes you gain, but the amount of crap in my system scared me, so I didn't weigh in... And now I'm getting ready to start my period, so bloating and water retention is an issue this morning.
I weighed 119 on the scale this morning... Not a huge gain but I didn't LOSE. I'm pissed. My goals were right there... Within reach and stripped away because my body decided to get all fucked up in the last week...
I feel so discouraged, I want to give up... I still feel sick from the BM issues, and my intestines hurt and NOW I have cramps and bloat.
I feel like a failure, and I know it's not my fault, but I don't know how to fix it!
Okay, Cally... You need to calm down, decide what you want, and tell yourself you can do it...
2 day liquid fast starting tomorrow... I'll buy the stuff today... I probably shouldn't start it today since I've been pooping SO much now, and if I do a juice cleanse I might dehydrate the shit out of myself...
We'll go with around 400 calories today - all neg cal foods if I can manage... I'll stop at the store and get a a mango (100), and I have an apple (70), and 3 tangerines (120) and 2 cups of cut strawberries (100).
I can regain control... I can weigh at least 115 when I go to FL, and I can be tanner...
Okay, laundry time and I have to go to the grocery store!
Think thin, ladies. And please send some love and support my way... I need it.