Friday, September 16, 2011
Ending my fast?
I think I'm going to end my fast a meal early... I'm still undecided though...
I intended to drink juice for dinner tonight and then have a normal food breakfast and lunch, but I think now I'm going to eat dinner and then juice for breakfast tomorrow and possibly lunch.
The hubby is encouraging me to stick it out, but I know that's because he knows so little about my true eating habits... If he knew the truth, I would not be allowed to fast in the first place. I know he just wants me to feel accomplished.
I still feel extremely accomplished. I still lost weight. I still did something I've been so bad at for so long.
But my body is hungry... So hungry in a deep way... Days of basically starving are wearing on me, and I think 5 days may have been too long of a goal by about a day... Next time we'll make it 4.
I'm legitimately extremely hungry, so I'm contemplating giving myself a bit of slack...
I still haven't decided though... I'm still up in the air... Not because I don't want to eat or because I feel like if I eat I'm failing...
Now I'm a bit scared to eat.