I've dreamed about Chevy the past THREE nights.
The first one I wrote about in my last entry... The night after, I dreamed we were kissing and last night I dreamed he wouldn't talk to me but was telling all of our mutual friends that he missed me.
I need this nonsense to stop! It's very distracting and makes it hard to function throughout the day... My emotions get a little out of control when it comes to him, and I have shit to accomplish - I do not need this distraction.
My weight was up today... Surprise surprise. I am incapable of going to my parent's house and not gaining. All I did this weekend was eat and eat and eat.
Binge, purge, binge, purge, binge, not purge, binge, purge, binge, purge.
That is my exact weekend eating schedule.
I feel like SHIT today from all of it and I'm bloated beyond recognition. Which sucks because I have to squeeze into my tiny work uniform... Today is my first day on the floor solo at work. Training is over. I'm excited, and I hope I actually make some moneyyyy.
Apple only for breakfast.
Chicken salad for lunch.
Fish and veggies for dinner.
GO TO THE GYM.
Clean up the house a bit.
Do some laundry.
I'm capable! Let's make it happen!