So, I'm not going to lie about things... I'm just going to confess my guilt.
Yesterday I got si-i-ick after I wrote that post. I think it was the Splenda in the drink (I think I REALLY am allergic to that shit!) along with the extreme amount of exercising (I did more than planned) the fact that I had just veggies, and the STRESS level I was experiencing because I did NOT keep track of time and was almost late for my interview...
So I felt like shit, my blood-sugar was too low... I basically crashed... And I got to the point where I thought I was going to pass out. And I HATE that feeling. I always monitor my food intake so that I do NOT experience this, and I did yesterday worse than I ever have... So I binged...
At the time, I thought "Okay, I'll just eat something until the BF gets home because I'm feel like I'm going to DIE." And I was so weak and hungry and feeling like shit I just ate... And ate... And stupidly had a trigger food...
Which lead to half a fiber bar.
Which lead to a snack cake.
Which lead to a glass of milk.
Which lead to a sandwich.
Which lead to another glass of milk.
And then I didn't purge.
Namely because it honestly took this much food until I wasn't feeling like I was literally going to DIE... Augh. I just couldn't stop eating...
It's a good thing I basically didn't eat anything else before the B because that list is a monster... It put my day at around 1,200. Which is NOT where I wanted to beeee!
SO bad day to say the least... But honeslty there's nothing I can do about it now... I just have to learn a lesson from this and move on to today...
And honestly, when I read online about how many calories I should have, "Weight Loss Intake" put me at 1,300. SO I guess that's just about even, and I DID eat neg cal for breakfast and lunch and burn like 500 on the eliptical... Which doesn't count my ab video and walking to the gym...
So I guess I'm just a little less than OKAY... But I want to be FABULOUS!
I'm such a fat, disgusting cow... I will never attain my goals if I do this...
I need to whip my ass into shape here and stop being pathetic.
But in other news...
I GOT THE JOOOOB!!!
I am soo excited! The interview went great, and the lady loved me... She left the room where she interviewed me and literally walked back in 2 minutes later with paperwork and said they wanted to offer me the job... Yay! She also told me there were over 3,000 applications for the 100 positions they have, so I should feel honored and that they really wanted me.
Pretty schnazzy, huh?
Well anyway... Today's eating goal:
B: Apple (70 neg cals)
L: Soup (120 cals)
D: 300 cals of whatever.
I can accomplish this... It cannot be that hard... I mean, FUCK. NO MORE binging...
Any advice how to combat crashing blood sugar without binging, ladies???